I just don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t handle this.
my dad is gone, he passed away 9 years ago..
but its never easy, and when it seems to be, all my walls come crashing down.
I had a dream last night, and he was still alive. someone told me that he was looking for me, so I went to find him. I found him kneeling down, and as I placed my hand on his shoulder, he turned to me and smiled, before he picked me up & held me tight. ‘I love you And I’ll never stop loving you’
and we continued on, without a care in the world.

there’s nothing I wouldn’t do, to have him back.. but at the same time, I’d do anything to be with him.. as much as I love my family, my friends and my boyfriend, every little girl needs their daddy. mine was just taken away from me..

.. and I need him more than anything right now :’(

And just like that, you were torn from my arms.

And there I was,
All alone.
You left me, you went away,
And you left me behind.
How could you just leave me?
How could you leave us?

There’s no way you had lived your entire life,
It was stolen from you.
How could God have been so selfish as to take you back.
And still, you walked into his light,
Rather than turning back, and fighting, and coming home,
Where you belong.

It hurts.
Every single day hurts,
That I have to live without you.
I would give anything to have you back.
How am I supposed to survive,
When the day you went away,
A piece of me died too.

But in the weakness,
I find strength.
I’m living the life you gave me,
And so the pain of your death,
Gives me the motivation to live.

You gave me life,
You showed me how to live,
And now,
Im expected to live without you,
It’s ironic, really.

But one thing that will never change,
Is the love I have for you.
And if I could turn back time,
I’d be your hero, I would have saved you.
And then,
I wouldn’t be standing here,
On the ground,
That you were taken from us.

I promise to you,
That when my turn comes,
I too, will walk into the light,
And return…

To your arms that I was torn from.